Remembering Scott

20 years ago today, Scott and I got married in Atlanta. If we had known on that day that we would have 19 years together, I don't think that, in the big picture, we would have changed how we ended up spending our time together. 10 years ago today, Scott and I were in Paris celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary. We had a wonderful time and made plans to go back for our 20th anniversary. Today I sold our townhouse, where we lived for nearly our entire marriage. It feels bittersweet falling on our 20th wedding anniversary, but it also feels fitting. I feel like Scott has been with me on this whole house buying/selling journey, and I feel his presence in the new house. The night that I settled on a price with the buyer, I went to pick up sushi because that's how we would have celebrated. I ended up signing the contract at the local sushi place that we had visited for nearly 20 years. The entrance has a pair of drums that we used to bang on the way out. I hadn'

Holding hands on a train in Japan, 2019   It's been one year since I last held Scott's hand. Letting go of his hand for the last time was one of the hardest things I've ever done. The last picture of Scott and me is also the last time he kissed me. A kind hospice chaplain had stopped by and asked us to tell her a little bit about ourselves. She prayed for us and ended with the Lord's Prayer. I started saying it along with her, and to my surprise I heard Scott saying it next to me as well. He had started to lose awareness of his surroundings and I wasn't sure what he could understand, but he recited the entire prayer without a hitch. We kissed and the chaplain immediately said, "Well, I have to take a picture of that." She insisted on it, so I handed her my phone and we kissed again as she took a picture. I won't share it here because Scott had lost a lot of weight by then and it might make people sad to see him in his final days. But the

Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild was Scott's all-time favorite game and the closest to everything he thought video games could be. He told me that he wanted to live long enough to play the sequel (Tears of the Kingdom) so it's bittersweet to see it get released this weekend, almost a year after he passed. As weird as it may sound, I hope he's out there somewhere, somehow, going on adventures in Hyrule.