Darkness and light (March 28, 2023)
The spring equinox brings days of increasing light, but it marks the beginning of what feels like my "dark days." All the bad things happened in the spring. Two springs ago, Scott was diagnosed with terminal cancer in March, we were reeling from the devastation of what this meant for our future, and he endured his first orthopedic surgery and radiation treatments. Last spring, Scott entered the hospital for the last time in April and passed away in May. Each spring, as I saw the forsythia and daffodils and cherry blossoms blooming brilliantly as we traveled back and forth to medical appointments, I felt the incongruity of life renewing all around me as Scott's health declined. I hope one day I can enjoy spring and the blooming flowers again without the sadness, but I am not there yet. This spring I am doing what I can to bring light into these dark days. I'm continuing to make my new house feel like home. In February, I added and replaced some light fixtures and had s