Scott's last message (April 26, 2022)

Scott entered the hospital for the final time in April and shared this message with his family and friends:

Well, that was short

I never thought I’d write this email, but yeah. After Azedra, there was a scan of my lungs. Some kinda scary stuff like some nobs on my lungs, but we had a new chemo coming up that hopefully would knock them back to where they belong.

I woke up this morning with a sharp pain near my heart. Doing my best not to die, I decided against just trying to go back to sleep and wake up Bessie and let her know that “hey, sorry to wake you, but I may be having a heart attack.” Bessie jumped to action, I laid in bed trying to play it cool, then we headed to the emergency room.

After a long number of hours in the emergency department later, we found out that it wasn’t a heart attack nor a blood clot! Whew! But when two doctors came in and closed the door I thought that was a bit weird.

Turns out the cancer in my chest is spreading quicker and growing faster than anyone anticipated. My questions regarding time were responded to in hours, not the years and months I thought in my head.

So I don’t know if I’m leaving this hospital. I really don’t want to die. I don’t want Bessie to be alone. I don’t want to leave my parents like this. I want to see my nephews and nieces grow up. I want to play Breath of the Wild 2.

But I don’t get to pick, but I’m glad I get to say a quick email goodbye to all the wonderful people that have filled my life. You have made my life so rich and full. Thank you for sharing your life with me.

“Is there anything I can do?” Take care of Bessie when I’m gone. Celebrate and love wonderful people in your life. Share cool things between each other. Do your best to be good, even if it doesn’t help you any.